I've been feeling completely numb lately

I don't feel sad exactly. I don't feel much of anything. I go through my day, I do what I'm supposed to do, I laugh at things when I'm supposed to laugh, I show up where I'm supposed to show up. But it all feels kind of hollow. Like I'm watching my own life from a slight distance. I've felt this way for a few months now and I can't figure out if it's getting better or worse because I can barely tell the difference between days anymore. I started thinking about when it started and what was happening in my life around that time. There was a lot going on that I'd pushed through without really dealing with. I'd gotten good at functioning and somewhere along the way functioning became the only thing I was doing. I also thought about whether the numbness was protecting me from something or just keeping me stuck. It's like emotional autopilot. Safer than feeling everything but you end up disconnected from your own life in the process. I realized the numbness wasn't neutral. It felt like nothing but it was actually costing me things. Connections I wasn't making. Moments I wasn't actually present for. A few months is long enough that something needed to shift. Waiting wasn't going to get me there. RESOLUTION Talking it through helped me see that waiting to feel something again without doing anything different wasn't a plan. We agreed the best next step was the smallest possible thing. Not therapy, not a big life change. Just one thing I used to actually enjoy before everything went flat. For me that was a video game I hadn't touched in months. Not because I thought it would fix anything. Just to see if that part of me was still in there somewhere. We also talked about paying attention to small stuff again instead of just moving through the day on autopilot. The way a song actually sounds when you really listen. Whether it's cold or warm outside when you walk out the door. Nothing dramatic. Just small reminders that there's something worth being present for.